"Pretending to be Yours"

I was a little girl since when my faith developed in Him ;
Have spent my days endless talking and sharing with Him .
He was always there to hear my laughs ,
He was always there when i had to cry ,
My sobs in His cradle of love would die ,
His touch made me believe -
There were better things to come ,
And when they actually happened
He was the first to whom i would run .
He has been my friend
Since when I know not ,
He has been a companion -
Always , althrough ;
The said , unsaid
He knew it all -
When I'd make a mistake
On my knees I'd fall ,
No ego , no shame
To me He was All .

His roles were many ;
With colours my life He filled ;
His gifts to me were moments -
Moments which made me happy and sad ,
Moments which made me feel good and bad ,
Moments that grilled and those that thrilled ;
My faith in Him I forever held .
Each day before Him ,
With reverence I knelt ;
But one day came
A storm so strong
It broke those knees of my faith
And killed our bond .
I wanted to pray ,
I wanted to love ,
I wanted to run to Him again -
For I have never had
A better Friend .
My legs wouldn't move
And time was flying by ,
I wondered without me ,
Out of sadness would he cry .
Then darkness engulfed me
And a light shone bright ;
I saw a mocking face
A glimmer in its eyes -
"I deceived you my love
Because I could give you nothing but the best .
I am no human
And so i understand not
Your tears , Your wishes ,
Your pain and your emotions rest .
I am not your friend
I did only pretend ;
Your Destiny is what
I write and i send ;
Your hopes with my decisions
I cannot blend .
Your knees I could , but will not mend -
For I am God
Yes , I am God ."